Because I spent Monday night/Tuesday morning drafting this email about why I'm calling it quits but I can't bring myself to send it, because part of me finds it darn hard to let it go so completely.

Because I spent Tuesday night/Wednesday morning reading Shin's Cancer Blog. I'm going through her archives in chronological order - from her being diagnosed with advanced breast cancer to getting the all-clear after treatment, I haven't got to the part where her cancer came back. But I know the end, so technically, I'm reading her journey to the end. "I live till I die" is what she lives by, and this is clear for her zest for life and optimism shine through even as she is realistic about her chances of survival (20% of stage Iv breast cancer sufferers live beyond 5 years). I like how she's able to strike a balance between optimism and delusion, trust and pro-activity..

"Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it." - Dana's fb status


p.s eye ringsss are growing because i can't hibernate @_@
p.p.s phewwww!! that post remained as 'draft', because i couldn't have been more wrong..