I had sea training today. We actually planned to have morning jog, but it started to pour around 7am. I was so happy! Haha... I was praying so hard that it'll rain when I was on my way there in the cab. Though I was happy, it was really cold. And I think that the training was really not all that fruitful. All I did was to try the K1, nothing else. And by the end of the training, I still could not even the balance on the K1. I'm really lousy! Maybe I will never quite make a good canoeist after all.

Anyway, I realised that Mr Tan actually knows that I went to try out for the OCIP. And he said that he had told the teacher not to select me cos it'll be too much to handle for me, and that I'll not be able to cope. Cos the OCIP requires lots of time. It's not like just going there and doing your work. It needs lots of plannings and meetings. And being part of the LTC group, I'm already very busy with the activites that we have to organise. Plus, canoeing and studies.

I don't know if he really meant what he said. But after think about it the whole of last night and today, I've realised that maybe I'm not that eager to go after all. But it's all up to fate now.